Saturday, 10 January 2015

Christmas in Heaven

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Hello! This post has been sitting in my drafts for some time, but I had not been able to get myself to a place to be able to publish it until now. Writing it has been really difficult but at the same time really comforting. 

This Christmas had been a really difficult one. My stepdad passed away suddenly from a heart attack in November. I woke up in the early hours of the Friday morning, the day that he passed. This was really unusual as I had been really tired from work, my PGCE placement and university all week. I'd woken up from a really strange dream. All I could see was my stepdad's face, he was talking to me but I couldn't hear him. I didn't feel unhappy or sad but I had a feeling I couldn't really explain. After waking up and briefly looking around the room I drifted off back to sleep. A short time later I woke up to see my brother Gavin stood in the bedroom doorway. He was struggling to tell Ian and I something but couldn't find the words. I knew before he opened his mouth what it was he was going to say. My stepdad, Steve, was gone. I don't see myself as a religious person or one that believes in spirits but it was an experience where I find comfort in believing he came to say goodbye. 

I never really knew my biological dad, he died when I was really young and I have no memory of him. I don't know what his voice sounded like or how he would laugh. I only know what he looked like from family photos. For as long as I can remember my stepdad had been a part of my life and although I never called him dad he was for all intents and purposes my dad and I feel blessed to have known him. He was there for me when I was little, teaching me about all his travels around the world. He was there for me as a teenager when I went off the rails. He was there for me on my wedding day, to walk me down the aisle. I will have my wedding photos to cherish forever, and they mean even more to me now. 

Not having Steve with us over Christmas has been really tough. Loosing someone is really painful but loosing them at a time like Christmas makes things even more difficult to come to terms with. As much as my family and I have been grieving we some how managed to pull together to make this Christmas really special. It was special for many more reasons too. Ian and I celebrated our first Christmas together in our own flat. My brother Adi and his wife Jo celebrated their first child Joshua's first Christmas. Its these special times that helps us to remember that even when we loose someone so special to us, we have to find a way to carry on and find peace in knowing that even though they are no longer hear in the physical sense, they were still there to share it with us. 

"May angels lead you in..." - Hear You Me by Jimmy Eat World. 

Claire Louise Xx


What I Got For Christmas!

Hello! I'm probably very late jumping on the bandwagon with this post, but better late than never! I know these posts are not to everyones taste but personally I love reading them, so if you have done one, leave me your links! I love seeing what people get for Christmas, its probably because I love giving presents so much. One of my favourites things about Christmas is buying presents and seeing my family and friends open them! I have to say I feel well and truly spoilt and I'm extremely grateful to all my family and friends for what they have given to me! 

Lush Bath Bombs.
Victoria Jackson Essentials Face Color Kit Palette.
Victoria Jackson Shimmer Powder Brush (Bronze).
Ted Baker Lindar Crystal Bow Matinee Purse
ghd White Eclipse Styler.
Smirnoff Vodka.
Weenie Beanies Tin
Merry Christmas Chocolate Tin.
Pandora June Birthstone Ring (Moonstone).
Yankee Candle Green Petal Bowl.
Yankee Candle Beautiful Day Wax Tart.
Heritage Rose Personalised Claire Pen.
Baylis & Harding Boudoire Pink Orchid Luxury Bath Wash 750ml.
Calvin Klein In2U EDT 150ml.
The Oatmeal How To Tell If Your Cat Is Plotting To Kill You.
Paperchase A6 Flexi Linen 2015 Owl Diary.

Jack Wills Hope Cove Gift Set:
Pink Shower Puff.
Striped Eye Mask.
Hope Cove Body Butter 175ml.
Hope Cove Hand Cream 75ml.
Hope Cove Body Wash 200ml.
Hope Cove Body Mist 125ml.
Hope Cove Body Scrub 200ml.

Soap & Glory The Next Big Thing Limited Edition Gift Set by Hattie Stewart:
Butter Yourself Moisture Lotion 500ml.
Heel Genius Foot Cream 125ml.
Whipped Clean Shower Butter 250ml.
Orangeasm Body Wash 500ml.
Hand Dream Super Cream 100l.
The Righteous Butter 300ml.
Sugar Crush Body Scrub 300ml.
Off Your Face 3 in 1 Daily Purifying Cloths.
Sexy Mother Pucker Lip Lacquer (Charm Offensive) 7ml.
Thick & Fast Super Volume Mascara 10ml.

I hope you had a wonderful Christmas and a fantastic New Year! 

Claire Louise Xx 


Tuesday, 23 December 2014

Favourites & Peeves #10

Hello. It's time for another one of my favourites and peeves! My last favourites and peeves was way back in July! Bad blogger, I know! I honestly feel that if I did these posts monthly I'd struggled to find things to ramble about but I have been leaving it a little too long between posts! Note to self - I must blog more often!


Acrylic Nails - I recently had my nails done with some acrylic gel overlays. I picked a really nice deep red for Winter which I absolutely love! I've stopped the awful habit of bitting my nails but they are still short and take forever to grow. I really like having acrylic nails, they are so strong, looking fresh and new for far longer than just painting my natural nails. I soak the acrylics off after a couple of weeks and give my own nails some well earned TLC using nail hardener and cuticle oil because the acrylic's tend leave my nails pretty weak. 

Le Creuset Stoneware Heart Remekin - A little treat that Ian bought for me back in October. We had gone to visit his family in Kent and spent a day shopping in Bluewater. We took a look in Le Creuset for some bits for our new flat and Ian spotted this heart shaped ramekin. This little ramekin is the perfect size for soups on cold Winter nights. 

Primark Opia Mirrored Floral Statement Necklace - I bought this necklace a few weeks ago and have been finding every opportunity to wear it since. I love wearing statement necklaces, perfect for dressing up a simple outfit. This statement necklace has nice mirrored silver flowers and gold chain which makes it perfect for wearing with almost any outfit. 

Yankee Candle Mandarin Cranberry Medium Jar - I can't get enough of this mandarin cranberry scent. It gives off such a lovely sweet smell that really fills the room. Anyone that has come around the the flat while I've been burning this candle has commented on how nice it smells. The scent of the sweet mandarins and cranberry makes it a nice Autumn scent but I'm mixing it in with my Winter Yankee Candle jars and using it right through from Autumn to Winter. 

Sleek Brow Kit (Light) - Having really fair, blonde eyebrows its hard to find a kit that is the right shade. Most I have come across are too dark and make my eyebrows look so fake. I love this Sleek Brow Kit. The shade of the light power is perfect and even the wax is nice and light. 

W7 Absolute Lash Mascara (Black) - I love using my Benefit They're Real mascara but once it ran out I could not justify spending almost £20 on a new mascara, especially after just buying a new car. I called into my local Xtras store and found the W7 Absolute Lash mascara. I think it cost around £3 but I have to say it is a really good dupe for the Benefit mascara. It works just as good, adding volume and definition, giving that fake lash effect. 

Models Own Artstix Duo Polish (Hot Red & Ember Glow) - I'd always wanted to try one of the Models Own Artstix Duo polishes and eventually purchased  hot red and ember glow. How nice are these two colours? Perfect for both Autumn and Winter. I really like using the hot red on my nails with the ember glow glitter on the tips or by mixing it up a little and having just one nail on each hand in ember glow and the rest hot red. 

Revlon ColorStay SPF 20  Foundation (150 Buff) - I had been on the hunt for a nice, moisture rich, Winter foundation. My skin tends to dry out in the cold weather so I needed a foundation that would not cling to the dry areas and look patchy. I have never really tried the Revlon foundations before but on a trip to Asda, doing the food shop, I was desperate to find a new foundation. I picked up this Revlon ColorStay foundation and was pleasantly surprised. The colour is a near on perfect match for my skin. I find it really difficult to find a foundation that matched my pink skin tones. The foundation has a nice lightweight feel and certainly does not cling to the dry areas, goodbye patchy face! 


3D Radiance Concealer Palette - I bought this concealer palette from Amazon for £2.56, bargain right? I don't even think its branded, I can't find a brand name anywhere on the palette so who knows! I wanted a palette with a wide range of shades to help cover up acne scars and those troublesome blemish. When it arrived I was impressed with the range of shades, perfect for pretty much any skin tone. Now here's the down side, all those little cream concealers feel really greasy and heavy on the skin. When first applied the coverage is pretty decent and covers blemish with no trouble as you can really build it up. However, after a couple of hours the concealer starts to look really patchy and just slides around all day. I probably should of know better for the price but I thought I would give this bargain a go. 

Paperchase Polka Cats Insulated Cup - Oh Paperchase, I usually love every single purchase from your beautiful store! It pains me to write this because I absolutely adore Paperchase, its one of those stores I get all excited about. I recently bought one of the insulated cups as I desperately needed one for work. Usually I would buy these cups really cheap from my local supermarket but thought as I hadn't had much luck with those (they leak all the time!) I would spend a bit more and buy a really cute one from Paperchase. Crazy cat lady me chose a cup with cats on, no surprise there! For a couple of days all was well, £7 well spent, until it started to leak! I was a little upset with the leaking but thought I would carry on anyway, after all I had spent a little more on this cup. Then after a few times of being hand wash in the sink the lovely cat design started to run, as water had gotten inside the supposedly sealed part of the cup. To top it of after few more days the cup started to smell dreadful, the water that had gotten into the cup just didn't want to come out again! 

Primark Opia Floral Statement Necklace - I usually love all of my statement necklaces and costume jewellery from Primark. I had really high hopes for this statement necklace and thought with the colours it would be perfect for a Christmas Eve or New Years Eve dressed up outfit. Primark I am so disappointed in you! The necklace looks so lovely but it just does not want to lay flat against the neck or where ever I want to wear it really. Part of the necklace just sticks out at an awkward angel making it uncomfortable to wear as it is quite heavy. I think this is because the flowers are not all one piece.  The flowers are made up of five sections joined by tiny links and the outer two sections just don't lay flat due to the links being too close together. All in all just a really bad design really. 

What have been your favourites and peeves recently?

Claire Louise Xx